True Angel wrote:
Good to be back, Pen!
Hi Rene, its so good to be talking to you again.... smiley: smile 90e3646c2ae6bfe6ba5cf97eaabc184c4fbb936d_s

Oh my God! You are soooo blessed to have Shaman and the rest of your family. Very happy you are still with us.
Did you have a near death experience?    image 
I had a very strange and unusual experience Rene.....  I posted it at the time.... so I have copied and pasted it here for you to read.  Make of it what you will...... it was so real to me at the time of experiencing it.  Even stranger is that in searching I found I am not the only one who has experienced similar.
As I lay flat on my back very sick in the Coronary Care Unit….. plugged up to all sorts of monitoring equipment, drifting in and out, but never left alone long enough to rest or gather any thoughts about my situation….. being poked and prodded, needles stuck in me, blood taken, temps, blood pressure etc…… when I closed my eyes I became aware of staring into a computer with a thick black frame, but inside the computer screen was a vast nothingness with small dull almost powdery looking lights moving around and it appeared there was a mirror effect with the computer…. Not only was I looking into it, I was surrounded by it.  It’s very hard to explain and make sense of.   As the days rolled on I wasn’t questioning, at times I wondered, but here I was in a computer yet outside of it at the same time.  How can this be….? Still too sick and sore to try and figure it out…..  Is it real?  Am I imagining this?..... yet every day was the same…… the moment I closed my eyes I was in the computer simulation whether it was day or night……  The people on the outside in reality took on a different  ????  they seemed like reflections from that computer simulation….  I know this may sound weird to some…. Or most, but this is what happened every day while I was in hospital….. however, when I became attached to wireless it became  stronger and I was able to discern what those little lights were…. They were the size of pinheads.….. very small, but each was programmed to do something different…. Some good, some bad, some even killers…..  As I watched this every day….. I could see their influence on humans…. Putting thoughts into people’s heads to do things they would not normally do…. Some making people sick…… they all had their roles. I even heard their voices…..    

Anyway still too sick to take it all in and try and figure it all out, and under a constant barrage of doctors and nurses….. I laid half in and half out of reality…. Watching this computer simulation whenever I closed my eyes.  It felt like I was plugged into it somehow….. in a sense I was via wireless with my heart monitors…… that is until last night after I arrived home.  Last night I went to go to sleep with no more monitors, and I was instantly back in the computer simulation and thinking now I have the quiet I need to figure this out while not being constantly interrupted.   I was having trouble breathing so transferred to the lounge room to sleep sitting up…. But before I could leave the bed…. Suddenly it was like the plug I had into the other world was pulled….. it came with such force I felt it reverberate/jar right through my entire body…… and that was it…. I was fully back in this world and I could no longer see the computer simulated beings…..  always doing things behind the scenes.  

 
It's 3:33 as I write this line.  Keep seeing the dreaded 11:11 and 1:11. Last night and this morning the last times.
I keep seeing the 11:11 too and every time I do I cringe.  I am ok with the other multiples of numbers I have been seeing but that 11:11.... E58369ed246bbe3fb96df28cab9612343fccbbbe_s

In 2013 and 2014 there have been so many things that have changed in my life,
but in the end I am more confident in my creative skills, if nothing else.
This is great news!! smiley: smile Mind you I have always thought you very confident ...... You have natural talent dear lady... and its great to know you are using it.... smiley: smile

My mother and stepfather have helped me out with my sewing venture. They have really tried to help within their limited means.
Bless them.... that is good news!

My mother and I talk every month. Remember the anymosity I had, years back, regarding her?
So, we are back on track going on at least two years. How things can change if we are open to it . . . .image 

Signing out for now . . . . image
I am so happy to read this Rene.....  just so happy....!  Its true that things can change if we open up to it....  Wounds can get healed. 

Take care smiley: smile
Pen
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"What lies behind us and what lies before us are small matters compared to what lies within us."  ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson ~